For whatever reason the above
lyrics from Whitney Houston’s song on her final album “I look to you” have been
my personal anthem for the past few days. Dianne Warren wrote this song for Whitney,
and her explanation for bestowing such a powerful song to our late performer
was that this was her story.
Music means a great deal to me.
It and poetry were my first form of comfort in my early years and the two have
been inseparable in my life ever since. I study lyrics and have been known to
listen to any genre of music as long as the writer of the song has managed to
capture my heart. Love songs are the very best and worst at the same time. The
memory of a love song can celebrate you or haunt you, depending on the
circumstances that go along with the tune. But good or bad, I must admit I sing
it all…loud and strong, mostly in my shower.
When this song began to resound
inside of me, I was curious about what was coming about that would make me need
these lyrics to get by. Initially, a friend came to mind and something inside
moved me to share this soul stirrer with her. I thought that I had done my job
in passing on this encouragement but it seemed that this melody would reveal
itself to me a day later.
I recently took an amazing trip
to Breckenridge Colorado to be with a group of beautiful people from the
writing community. On my way to the airport this past Sunday morning, a
beautiful spirit who is now one of my closest friends wanted to take me to
Loveland Pass, the Continental Divide. I stood atop the pass at 11,990 feet in
elevation and knew for sure that this was my God moment for the day. I had been
ill the night before and still recovering but when presented with the
opportunity to climb to the top, I went for it…strength. While up there I
looked around took several photos and declared that this was symbolic of how
high God wants to take me.
Before leaving the lodge that
morning I received an email that when I was to return home, life would be
different. I accepted this much needed changed and packed with teary eyes…strength.
When I turned the key to my
house that evening, I walked in and felt a change in the atmosphere
immediately. I knew for sure that this was my new beginning and I walked around
fully aware that this had been granted to me from God. I hugged my kids, chatted
with my daughter and finally locked up the house and turned off the lights to
go to bed alone…strength.
The next morning, I woke up
with a burden on my heart that I could not shake. I thought that I needed to
apologize to a very close friend but when I listened more closely for
direction, I found that I needed to reveal my heart to that person. I had been
avoiding this moment for quite some time now but it seemed that on this
particular day, I could go no further in our relationship without being
truthful. I sat down to write what will always seem to me to be one of the
hardest letters in my life, and I have written many. After reading and
rereading several times, I sent the letter at the risk of losing my friend…strength.
For the rest of the day, tiny
revelations kept coming to me and they were the fuel that sparked me to keep
moving even when I couldn’t see light. One revelation was that love revealed is
most powerful when your love for a person does not rely on their response or
The other is that as a woman, I
was created with an enormous capacity to love. Love ignites our wombs. Love
bears down and pushes children into the world. Love sparks the desire to bring
a child into our lives and raise them as our own. Love reaches out to ailing
friends and dying parents. Love nurses, and protects, and walks along side of
the people in our lives. Love revealed is extremely powerful and I am finding
within my lifetime that very few are able to express it.
I want to speak a fresh word
into the spirit of my kindred sisters who love to love. I want to tell you that
you are never more powerful, or necessary, or alive than when you open up your
heart to love the people that God has placed in your life’s path.
And when the pain of living in
this world starts to wear on you, tap inside to the maker of such love and
allow Him to reveal all of the strength that He has placed inside of you…