I Found Me...

Feet dangling

Playing in the streams of life

Giggling like a school girl at a never ending slumber party

Dancing to music piped in from Freedom’s Broadcasting Network

And feeling lovely about me

After a lifetime of being trained

How to be the perfect women

How to pretend

How to submit

How to look the other way

How to hold it together

While feeling like the crazy part of the glue

 Watching all of my dreams go floating out the door

I.found.me

I was crumpled up and tossed behind

Life’s wastebasket

A half written to do list

An unfinished poem

A check mark next to a mundane chore

A note asking for more

There I was

You picked me up and smoothed

My crinkled life

And began deciphering the cryptic messages of my heart

You Abba explained my own pain to me

In ways I could have never understood

You taught me how my mind worked

And insisted that despite the many

Blows that I suffered to my emotional cortex

I still functioned well

You said I was whole

Long before I understood what wholeness was

And when the pipe burst in my heart

And I could no longer contain my emotions

You held me

And all of my liquid pain

At night you sang a lullaby to my spirit

That spoke directly to each day of my life

From birth till now

You remembered what I had forgotten

Or refused to acknowledge

You showed me that pain ignored

Will devour your soul

And become the monster inside of you

That you see in others

You Daddy G

Gave me my first nickname of honor

You called me “Princess”

And laced me with your love

You took me back home

To the foreign land from which I hail

A place called “Innocence”

You said that I was still

A native and would forever be so in Your eyes

We sat on the side of a mountain

And skipped wishes across the lake

As the sun set in sapphire hues

You gave me a stern directive

With more love than I could gather in a lifetime

“Live and Be Free!”

And showed me my reflection in the mirror

Of your Glory

For the first time in my life

I saw radiance

And it was coming from under my skin

Beauty rested in my eyes

And honor (which comes from being your very own)

Adorned my quaff

Like a diamond studded crown

You lifted me

High into the heavens

And baptized me

In eternity

Then placed me gently back in my today

With a new heart

And a restored mind

Nothing missing

Nothing broken

Forever gifts

From

Adoni…

BFP (c)